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Past

I saw you

Struggling for breath.

Forgiven

though

not blessed.

This is how it is,

my best.

Taken away.

You no longer arrive.

A hundred, thousand years

of

secrets and lies.

No one knew.

No one would say boo to you.

Locked walls

you applauded

your own

wars.

I saw you

you cried.

My time

and all

I had to bide.

The years and years

I held on

silent sighs.

All of me

and mine.

Inside.

I saw you

you pierced

my life.

For a long time

I did more than fight.

My room

at night

Still and quiet

Fight or flight.

Again and again

and the pain

crucified me so much,

sometimes I actually felt insane.

"God" I hated you.

You, to me

never felt true or good

You wasn't my blood.

"Mother" did, never should.

The dark cloak came down

descending

like

darkest black.

You were ugly,

so full of crap!

You had your own personal map.

You done it because you could

leaving a stain

like dirty, stinking, wet sewage mud.

Much was spoken

never said.

You invaded

my life;

My body,

my room,

my bed.

You stole me

sold me

there wasn't time.

You exposed my very being.

You freezed me.

Beat me.

Bled me red.

You made me tense,

terrified.

I hardly cried.

I was sleepless.

I was lonely.

I was tried.

I saw you

crazy

wired.

Your ego loud and high.

You were brutal.

Barbaric.

Wild.

You subjected

and projected.

Proverted man

few words.

Perverse.

Always there.

Every day Worse.

I saw you

you were driving

hectic

and

vexing.

Mindless

Chaotic

like a machine.

Inhumane

Robotic

Narcotic.

I held out

Never broke

later spoke

about.

I stayed

Alive.

I survived.

I heard you suffered

I heard you'd died.

Written by "I"

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